January 27, 2008

A Dozen Updates

1. Lola Lita's at the UP shopping center has never failed me. My taste buds are so freakingly compatible with their menu. Why so? I love their sweet, subtly flavored adobo. I revel in the 'crunch' of every bite of their vegetable dishes cooked just right. I crave for the fried eggplant soaked in mildly spicy toyo. The tender meat in my favorite nilagang baboy. UP campus living.

2. Why do i have to check my Friendster account daily?

3. I am already conscientiously planning for something that is still two years away.

4. I sleep too soundly. Of course, i sleep much toooooo long.

5. I have learned not to expect change from other people because the only thing i can change is myself. Well, this isn't weird.

6. My hobby lives on. I get a kick each time i enter this paradise called Rustan's Supermarket. Cookies, chocolate chip cookies, chocolates, biscuits, nuts and more nuts.

7. I miss my parents. So, i'm still very much normal.

8. I watch it. I watch it sparkle. It has to grow on me.

9. I'm en route to becoming more patient, more selfless and more forgiving.

10. Walking underneath canopies of trees to the tune of my favorite music is always a delightful experience.

11. I miss the game of bridge. Hello Gabay.

12. Weirder by the day.

January 25, 2008


I miss mama. My stoic, beautiful, weird and thoughtful mama. My one and only mama. Mama. Mama. Mama.

Si Papa rin. My sweet, strict, old-fashioned and intelligent papa. My loving Papa. Papa. Papa. Papa.

Voldemort, bakit mo naman kinuha si Mama sa akin? GRABE KA. Nagti text ka pa ng mga Godly quotes sa akin noon a. Wala bang kwenta yon?

To have love is the best thing that will ever happen in a person's life. Buti na lang meron ako, kung hindi, pati ako napatay mo na rin siguro. Sana mabigyan ka rin ng buhay, kahit lahat ng tao sinasabing dapat magalit lang ako sa iyo mula sa kailaliman ng katauhan ko. Pero hindi ko gugustuhin yon. I don't want to get the joy out of my life.

Buti na lang, God is my Father. And I know He is a just God. At buti na lang, meron akong mabait na soon to be mama in law. May magulang pa rin naman ako. At alam ko ang nanay at tatay ko, masaya sa akin.

Sana alam mo na ang buhay natin, hindi nagtatapos dito. Because i know people like my mom, have an inheritance in my Father's Kingdom. And what better thing is there than to be where prosperity, joy and peace never ends?

January 20, 2008

I dont think

that my words are just waves that float into oblivion
that my thoughts are mere ideas that only i can fathom

I like to think

that you still feel the joy i have, the sadness your absence brings
that you still know how much you are adored and missed

I want to think

that these expressions i write reach you where you are
that i can still communicate my deep longing

I refuse to think

that my senses may never feel, hear nor smell you
that i may not even have the chance once again to open my eyes and see you

But my heart is so full of you
And my mind talks to you day and night.

January 19, 2008

I super miss you ma.

Ang hirap mawalan ng nanay. Ang sakit sakit.

It is hard to let go of the fact that you'll never see her face anymore while the picture is still so vivid. Her deep set eyes are so like mine. I see her fine wrinkles and thin eyebrows. Her embarassed smile before a camera. Her skin, soft to my touch. She isn't hairy like my sister and I are. How can i let go of the fact that i'll never be able to touch her again? I miss her throwing my sister, Rhys and I out of her room when we just lounge there when she's preparing to go out. We tend to steal her mirror space, her seating space and we do play with her collection of perfumes and jewelry. We love staying there when she's busy and disturb her with all kinds of questions. I especially like reading in her room because that's where our magazines are and the room is particularly the sunniest in the house. I miss having to force myself in the bathroom just to show my clothes before i leave the house even if she's in the middle of taking a bath or just doing something, you know what. I miss telling her she has an important visitor, when there's really no one or when the ice cream or fish vendor passes by our house.

I miss Hen Haw's crispy pata served on the table whenever Homer and I are around. One time, she gave us money for Oasis' eat all you can, just so we'll stop bickering in the living room.

Hindi ba alam ni Voldemort ang mga ito? Wala ba siyang nanay?

January 12, 2008

Day Four: And I Seek You Lord

to know you more
to love you more
to follow you with my all

and i pray Lord
for a good year
for a great year
obeying You

and i praise you Lord
for your goodness
for your faithfulness
you are my all.

January 06, 2008

A New Season For Me

All that was stolen
Is returned to me
A hundredfold

Tried in the fire
But i'm coming out

It's a new season
It's a new day
Fresh anointing
Is coming my way

It's a new season
Made just for me.

January 04, 2008

Seven Years

high school pa to

are 7 years are 1,2,3,4,5,6,7 years.

1 year ago siguro

Deaths like these are not totally pointless

So with mama.

(Click photos to enlarge.)