December 30, 2007

I Love You Goodbye

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me

You need someone
willing to give their heart
and soul to you
Promise you forever,
baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie

I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand
I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know
this is the kindest thing to do

You'll find someone
who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime

I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

December 23, 2007

Merry Christmas!

Pano ba magpasko ang isang ulila
Sa tingin ko naman ay masaya
Dala ang ala ala
Ng aking ama at ina
Haharapin ko ang lamig ng gabi
At sariwang simoy
Ng malulutong na halakhak
At maliligayang kanta

Pano ba magpasko ang isang ulila
Sa tingin ko ay maganda
Kasama kahit mapait na luha
Ng matinding pangungulila
Na nagpapatunay
Na walang kapantay
Ang pagmamahal na nakuha
Noong sila ay buhay pa

Para kay mama at papa

December 09, 2007

In retrospect

I expected this year to be a blast. At the start of the year, i was part of a small group (VCF) and I told everyone that 2007 is my year without batting an eyelash.

Irony of all ironies, it turned out to be the worst year ever. Problem after problem after problem emerged. Looking back, i never would have expected to survive each. I thank God i am still alive and still able to enjoy life and laugh and love and forgive.

Of course, it is difficult. Until now, i am still quite depressed after receiving news about my latest problem. (Please pray for my lola, by the way, she will be operated on this week, probably Thursday to remove a tumor in her stomach. I am praying that it's not cancerous.)

I also am very disappointed with several people whom i considered very close friends who all seem to be fair weather friends anyway. Im referring to those who i expected more from, especially those who knew my Mom personally.

Homer always says that i shouldn't expect them to check on me as some sort of obligation but well it is just to hard to accept it. On the other hand, some people text me really good messages but when i need encouragement or when there's opportunity to show me support, they just are not there. Some even drive me more to the pits of depression. Well, i hope to be totally over that soon enough. I just want to let it out.

I just made a commitment earlier to look beyond my situation and put my hope in Christ. I am releasing all the burdens of this human life and accepting God's sovereignty and my inheritance from my Father in heaven.

2008 will be better. I'm back.

By special request


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