August 29, 2007

Dear God,

You gave me very wonderful parents.

My dad used to get up early just to cook breakfast for me. When i didn't want what's on the table, i'd complain; then, he'd prepare another meal for me.

Recently, i just saw my old travel itinerary back in 2001. There, my mom listed down the time of each phonecall and where i was at that time; and copied there each text message i sent from NAIA until i reached my final destination.

Lord, at 26, the two people who valued me like nothing else in this world is more precious are both gone. And i am with the hope that they are in a state of conscious joy in your presence, free from the cares of this world.

But i still hope they can see me, or listen to me, or for that matter i hope they still know me. If so, can i ask you to be my messenger? Or can they roam the earth so that they will just stay with me all the time?

Lord, my finite mind cannot fathom your reasons. But i have faith that you'll take care of me and make me well.

I don't know how many deaths i have yet to face, but please God, not in the near future, please, not soon.

I know you don't give us anything we cannot bear.

And its hard. I can not even begin to explain how hard and painful it is. And why the recent loss had to happen that way.

But Lord, i thank you for my friends. Thank you for my extended family. Thank you for the people who care for me. Thank you that i have a good relationship with my only sister. Thank you for your provision.

Lord, please give me more faith to hold on, to You alone. Please give me more love to forgive. Please give me more grace to have the strength and ability to move on.

Love,
Rianne

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

hi Rianne,

Sometimes we just have to trust in His plan. And you are not alone, He's there carrying you. And we're there with you.

Kita tayo minsan. :)

God Bless at ingats,
lo