August 29, 2006

The unexpected

Just when you stop to smell the blooming flowers
The clouds hide the glorious sun
They spell gloom and dim the colors
And raindrops muffle the laughter and fun

Just when you worked so hard
In order to set everything in place
The tempest tears everything apart
The wild animals invade, nothing's left to save

Everywhere you look, darkness ensues
There's a vacuum inside and you cry out
And ask all kinds of questions
But no voice comes out

Just the feeling of fear and loneliness
Because something is taken from you
And you want it for yourself
But it has to be that way like telling you

That it is not for you to keep
Loneliness is intermittent
Happiness cant go on so deep
To make it actually permanent

Things happen
Things go
You only accept them
And let go

August 24, 2006

Dahil marami akong dapat basahin ngayong gabi

HS survey

Message: nicknames in HS:
- It may be too embarassing to admit, but i made my own alias - 'trichzie'. Don't ask how i came up with it because it is kinda shameful.

average grade:
- i don't remember really.

- I was goody two shoes forever.

anong klaseng tao ka nung H.S? brainy, mvp,
sosy, nice guy?
- nerd, active, aloof, friendly to my friends lang as always

- Forum, CAT

who are ur best friends in HS?
- cheesy Magic Seven, BUs, ang mga pusang sina Ishlin & Muma, dami. I'm friendly to my friends nga e.

ano-ano ang usual topics of discussion w/ ur
- buhay namin at ng ibang tao. woh. small minds talk about other people. hehe.

favorite tambayan/s?
- mushroom malapit sa TNL, labas ng classroom, Forum office

favorite merienda/lunch?
- kakanin. Im Pinoy kasi e.

hobbies sa classroom?
- makipagkwentuhan lalo kina Jones, Russ, Jomel at magpacute sa crush ko.

ano ang kadalasang ginagawa mo after dismissal?
- after class, CAT, tapos meryenda once in a while sa labas

nag-dissect ba kayo?
- semi

sumasali ka ba sa quiz bees?
- sort of

sa school beauty contests?
- no way. I quote 'ordinary looking'. Hahaha.

favorite subject/s?
- Math, Physics, Chem, Journalism, History, nerd e.

hated subject/s?
- Values, not that i'm vile ha.

favorite teacher/s?
- Mr & Mrs. Gacayan, Mrs. Calicdan, dami dami dami pa

hated teacher/s?
- no comment. I hate noone.

ano rank mo sa CAT at the end of the year?
- Lt. Col. ba o Col. ang mas mababa? imagine. So not me.

sino CAT commandant nyo?
- Sir Dinky

eh corps commander nyo?
- Rodel

kasali ka ba sa varsity?
- sorta. basketball. Hahahaha.

favorite field trip?
- 4th year, but all i remember is the sidetrip to SM. Ngi.

kamusta naman ang prom?
- 3rd year prom. A sign of good things to come.

naging prom king/queen ka ba?
- nope

anu pang nangyari nung prom.
- Danced with my prom date, Homer.

san kayo nag prom?
- not worth mentioning.

may ka-date ka ba nung prom?
- yup. taba na niya ngayon. haha. not related.

sinu-sino crush mo nung HS?
- P.A., D.A., B.A., M.L. -- so high school!

did you take the UPCAT?
- yup

nakapasa ka naman sa UPCAT?
- yup

first choice mo ba campus mo?
- yup. pati course. but destiny sent me to THE Areneo. hahaha. im having fun here.

most memorable HS moment?
- senior's ball. negative or positive? you have to guess.

best thing about HS?
- my classmates are the best. a good mix of funny, angst filled, self centered people. so high school. so us. i love em.

worst thing about HS?
- backbiters and epaloids.

best year in HS?
- 3rd year and 4th year.

given the chance to relive your HS days..ano
babaguhin mo?
- wala. i loved it that way.

what items from the present will u bring w/u?
- my lappy, maybe i'll get that one thing i wanted but didnt get.

did you enjoy high school?
- of course naman no. who didn't?

August 21, 2006

Homer C. Danao

Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday. Happy birthday.
Happy birthday to you.

--the voice

You Who Never Arrived
Rainer Maria Rilke

You who never arrived
in my arms, Beloved, who were lost
from the start,
I don't even know what songs
would please you. I have given up trying
to recognize you in the surging wave of the next
moment. All the immense
images in me-- the far-off, deeply-felt landscape,
cities, towers, and bridges, and unsuspected
turns in the path,
and those powerful lands that were once
pulsing with the life of the gods-
all rise within me to mean
you, who forever elude me.

You, Beloved, who are all
the gardens I have ever gazed at,
longing. An open window
in a country house--, and you almost
stepped out, pensive, to meet me.
Streets that I chanced upon,--
you had just walked down them and vanished.
And sometimes, in a shop, the mirrors
were still dizzy with your presence and, startled,
gave back my too-sudden image. Who knows?
perhaps the same bird echoed through both of us
yesterday, seperate, in the evening...

Translated by Stephen Mitchell

August 18, 2006

How sweet it is to be loved by you


Ang saya lang ng buhay kung may nagmamahal sa yo. Na kahit ano ka pa o kahit ano pang gawin mo o gaano nakaririndi ang pag-uugali mo o nakasasakit sa tenga ang pa ulit ulit na reklamo mo, mamaya nagtatawanan na naman kayo na parang walang nangyari. Kahit mawaldas mo pa ang perang pinaghirapan niya o hindi ganon ka aya aya ang resulta ng mga pinaggagagawa mo, aakuin pa ang responsibilidad kahit ikaw ang mali.

Minsan ba, naiisip mo hindi mo dapat nakukuha yung mga ganong klaseng regalo.

Wala lang, madalas kasi naipagwawalang bahala ko lang ang lahat ng kagandahang ito.

Kaya sana tulungan ako ni Lord, magtuluy tuloy sana ang pagpapakabait ko.

Kung bakit kasi minsan, hindi ko ma control ang mga nararamdaman ko. Bira nang bira. Puwede naman mag antay ng isang oras, huminga ng malalim, bago magsalita. Pero bakit sa isang araw e ubos na ang monthly call allocation ko sa Globe?

Pero laking pasasalamat ko, kasi ang saya ng buhay.

Supermegacorny pero totoo. Seryoso. Sayang lang sana purong Filipino. Nawawala tuloy ang moment.


Pero walang lokohan to.

August 17, 2006


I haven't been blogging lately. That's because i don't want to rant. I've lost umbrellas. The laundry shop lost one of my tshirts. I paid exaggerated fees for shoe and watch repairs. I have hormonal imbalance and that means i have a next to major pimple breakout again. And who needs that? I'd rather remember the good stuff but i don't write them because they might seem so banal and dull.

Many good things are happening though which are too personal to be written in detail. God has been teaching me a lot of things lately - relationships, my life's direction, patience and all these things. I'm savoring each plateful. It feels so good that someone so big and so great cares about a Rianne, who is just one of several billion people in this planet.

August 15, 2006

August 10, 2006

Looks family