July 29, 2005

Big bad day

Nothing lasts forever?

Some do, but not all.

I'm just sorry, this one didn't survive the hurdle.

July 22, 2005

Karmic points

We saved a guy's life!

A while ago, Gretch (my blockmate) and I just caught a man falling down in an escalator. We just came from Gateway to watch a tear jerker. We were going up to Aurora when the man in front of me just fell head first. I caught him by the shirt while Gretch held on to his pants. Apparently his sleeve got caught in the railing. He didn't get to say thank you though, probably out of embarassment.

Anyway, If Only was okay. I cried in two parts, but well, i cry a lot when watching movies anyway. I don't know, but i kinda related a lot to the topic but i don't wanna elaborate. Hehe.

There will be no classes on Monday so hurrah, i can study! Haha. Nerd! Nerd! Nerd! Sadly, i still don't get to read everything!

I don't know if it was Monday when i heard that my lolo's sister was claiming the land where our house is, well, not ours but my lolo and lola's house in Caba. One they've been there for more than 30 years. Two, my lolo's name is on the tax declaration. Three, it's only now, that this ogre writes my lolo, who can barely walk at 85, is ulyanin and all - that she is the rightful owner of it.

What's worse is she even mentions my dead father's name in the letter alleging some stuff that aren't true at all!

What heart does anyone have to write a man and ask him and his wife to leave their house, when, God forbid, it's almost their time. They're both 85.

I won't even touch on the validity of her claim as it is so idiotic and baseless. It is the thought that bothers me. Eighty five year old people being evicted from a place that they considered home for decades.

Why does it take her decades to assert this claim? Why not earlier, when they were still at least not that emotionally vulnerable? I just can't seem to get the logic. It is so so so harsh! Gosh, i was so angry.

Well, i just lift it all up to God. I won't even bother to lift a finger. I'm just saddened by the thought of how my lolo and lola could have felt when they received the letter. Gosh, why are some people just so harsh.

July 08, 2005

The mess that there is

Somebody just asked what my stand is on the recent Gloria-gate scandal. Honestly, i do not have a political stand. Is it because i don't read the papers anymore or is it because i've got no time to care?

What i think is that Filipinos are too emotional. When something like this happens, a lot of people unite and strongly pursue a good cause. However after a year, or even a few months, everything goes back to the same old routines. We hope to choose good leaders, but elections can be easily rigged. We hope for the best governance yet corruption is more a common thing than an exception. Well, there is an impeachment process - which can be manipulated anyway aside from wasting taxpayer's money on a long convoluted oratorical contest. Whether it be an impeachment or a resignation, i'm sorry to think that it is not a far fetched idea that sooner or later, we'll be at the same position again. All that's sure is that the economy, struggling as it were, is hopelessly flailing about and being shred to minute pieces yet again. Most people will kill just to get out of this country, well not literally of course.

So, what is my stand?

All i'm sure of is that i will pray for our country. I don't think it's hopeless, i don't think it's begging for a miracle. Our God is bigger than any of all country's problems combined. Our government is not in need of a major facelift. It needs a 180 degree turn.

July 02, 2005

What is wrong with me?

One, i can't live alone. I mean like in a bachelor's pad, by myself. I read somewhere that people who can't live without company are those who are insecure, can not be independent and need others to be happy.

It's just that i need to be with someone. During weekends, people in the dorm go home or party. That leaves me alone most of the time. I should be happy actually, as i will be able to READ without interruption. However, i end up being too lonely, i just sleep all the time. The first days i had here were sooo lonely. I even had to knock at the adjacent unit's door telling them, 'i'm homesick, can i stay with you guys for a while?' How lame is that? I don't have to repeat my favorite line nowadays, that i'm too old for these stuff.

I don't need to talk to anyone though. It's just that i need to see someone, breathing, walking, smiling, eating or even sleeping. If i'm alone i just feel freaked out. It's not that i'm afraid or anything, i just need to be with someone.

Two, i just can't do the same single thing for extended periods. I need to take breaks. Well, except for movies, or really hard to put down novels. Other than those, i have to stop, take a walk, clean, do something else, eat, text, whatever. I have this attention span that complains when exceeded. Another problem is that, i can't force myself. I just can't concentrate on one thing for so long a time.

Argh. Why do i suddenly have this gamut of problems about myself suddenly.

Anyway, here's a picture of my block.

July 01, 2005

Naiiyak ako!

Am i too old to be homesick?

I haven't gone home in three weeks and i feel miserable. It's just that there's toooo much to do in so little time. Sigh. Talk about pressure to finish things.