January 30, 2005

Why do some people think like that?

Thank God my mom's thyroidectomy was successful last week. We are now praying that the biopsy will not show anything unusual. The results will be known on Thursday. Please pray with us once more. Thank you for those who showed concern and for those who prayed for her recovery.

Well, related to this, since i expected that we will be short of money, i asked an acquaintance to return the amount she borrowed last year. It took a lot of messages and explanations and until now, i've never gotten hold of any amount.

After not hearing from her for some time, one morning, she was saying something to the effect that she was collecting money for paying taxes and some bills and if possible, she'll give me my money next week. Add to it, i will be instrumental to paying her a sum in advance such that she can pay for the real taxes and large bills.

I was really stunned. Why would someone put taxes or bills over hospitalization expenses? I was really really pissed and of all people she would tell ME that. I really don't know what she was thinking or if it was plain lack of consideration or just plain tactlessness. I'm so clueless and pissed.

I mean why would someone let me worry about where to get money when in fact, i shouldn't be worrying about it in the first place because i gave her my savings. I mean, if she has no money, she can borrow from others or go to a pawnshop or whatever just because I am in need of money and she owes me.

After several exchanges, she told me she expected that my mom will be discharged from the hospital next week and so she may have thought she could pay the bills first but still it doesn't make sense to me.

If i am not stressed anymore, maybe i will understand the logic behind this or can somebody show me.

Sometimes, i think i just give when somebody says she or he is in need without mulling over the fact that someday, i will be the one in trouble.

My mom is like that, she is generous to a fault and when she's in need, the same people she's been generous to will never exert any effort to pay her back. Then she'll be the one worrying where to get the money.

When we were young, one of our relatives was constantly at the house asking to borrow money from my parents. Now that they are really rich, they've built a huge wall around their house to secure them from their neighbors whom they suspect of stealing from them. Guess what items are stolen - rubber slippers and dust cloths among other things and the nearest neighbors are US. What the hell.

It really is painstakingly difficult to understand the logic behind people's thoughts sometimes and i've become really bitter. That's why i'm praying really hard for me to be able to just let go of such bitterness and move on and regard these things as some silly stuff from the past. It's really hard, you know.

January 22, 2005

Happy day

I didn't go to school because the Midterms exam was postponed to next Saturday. Am i happy? Oh well, Finance and Production Management on the same day - wow wow wee. No open notes. Exciting!

I've also been looking at my past entries. I haven't really posted any worthwhile thoughts for some time now. Maybe i haven't had any. It's just that i haven't been reading lately. Well, except for time value of money equations, utilization and standard times and inventories. What insightful ideas can emerge from there? Oh, but on second thought, i'm really in search of a brilliant business idea, to support my ugh.. whatever's gonna happen next in my life. Hehe.

This will be my first 2005 entry with pictures.

Before: Oily faces at the Junior High Prom. Ew!

After: Lanie's daughter's baptism.

Now: Kalbo at bakal

Spot the difference.

January 20, 2005

Life is beautiful

Please pray with me.

My mom is to undergo a minor operation next week. Please pray for her and the doctor of course. There are some abnormal bulges at the lower part of either side of her throat and the doctor's gonna remove them.

These abnormal growths have been there for some time already. Good, that they're not cancerous or malignant. However, to be safe, it's better to remove them. Besides, they're quite unsightly.

I'm going to Bohol!

On a lighter note, at last, the ever unsuccessful plans are gonna happen. It was good the December plan didn't materialize; otherwise, we wouldn't have been able to take advantage of really good ticket prices at less than half the regular if i'm not mistaken.

Thus, i get to visit Tagbilaran and maybe have a short trip around Cebu. Yay! I've never been to a real vacation for some time now. I get to go around places but some business itinerary has got to be somewhere in between. Now it is purely leisure. I'm excited!


I've been a really not so diligent student since the start of this semester. I don't know it it's my work obligations or the thought that i'm not gonna finish the Masterals anyway because i'm planning something else.

I begin to read texts and they all seem new to me. Wow, i never thought these were discussed in class. What was i doing there? Maybe -- day dreaming and seating there waiting for dismissal. I feel bad, not that i am such a diligent, model student normally. It's just that, normally i'd listen so that when i review, i already have heard and understood concepts. In other words i really "re" "view" the concepts. Maybe i'm not so interested in the subjects. Maybe it's the Math. I don't know really.

Actually, i ought to be reviewing at this time yet here i am, chatting and emailing the night away. Sigh.

January 13, 2005


Yes, i am confused. I'm like at a point where i don't know where to go. It is really hard. I wanna do all sorts of things and i have a lot of choices and decisions to make.

It is like choosing a pack of chips among fifty or so choices but the chips don't give justice to what i am faced with. I've been like this for a year or maybe more than that. At times, i feel like i've planned my life up to the littlest detail and at times i feel like all i do is plan and nothing comes to fruition because when i am about to take a choice i'd have second thoughts and out comes five more choices.

It is getting crazy!

The only thing that is making me sane is the thought that at least, as a person, i can choose what i want or what i love. Other people are simply just faced with nothing but what and where they are positioned at the moment.

I think i have to reread Purpose Driven Life.

January 10, 2005

Nervous breakdown

Balance From Previous Bill 4360.41

Current Charges

Total Fixed Charges 1090.91
Total Voice Call Charges 2326.41
Total Text Messaging Maintenance Fee 198.24
Total GPRS Charges 9.05
Total Prepaid Loading Services 50.91

Current Charges Before Taxes 3675.52
VAT 362.55
Total Current Charges 4038.07

Total Amount Due in Pesos 4098.48


January 05, 2005

Happy Happy Four Years!

I am happy!

I am cramming!

So, i'll take this survey. Kutob mo, grabeng labo.

1. 1st time you tried smoking: n/a
2. 1st alcoholic drink you had: gin, haha! then mule.
3. 1st time you entered a bar: maybe first year college, Gimbal's
4. 1st award you received: beats me.
5. 1st hero: Yellow Four! If we are of the same the generation, you know what i'm talking about.
6. 1st time you were sent to the principal for discilinary actions: i'm a good girl
7. 1st time you failed in school: i failed an exam in 2nd year college, i don't remember which subject though.
8. 1st college entrance exam you took: UPCAT
9. 1st teacher in college: i don't remember, i have bad memory.
10. 1st job: technically, web page developer, in college, pro bono
11. 1st crush in college: some cute Chinoy
12. 1st person na binigyan mo ng flowers? my mom
13. 1st date: the real date? literally, Esteban Abada St.
14. 1st friend: i also don't know, what a kindred spirit
15. 1st kiss: my fiance, talaga lang ha.
16. 1st movie you watched with a friend: what else, i don't remember
17. 1st fight with a friend: maybe Grade Four
18. 1st gift you received from a friend: hankies
19. 1st gift you gave to a friend: stationeries
20. 1st record you bought: Whitney Houston
21. 1st song you sang infront of many people: One Moment In Time
22. 1st musical instrument you learned to play: ukelele
23. 1st concert you watched: can't remember: Rivermaya, i think
24. 1st celebrity you saw in person: alvin patrimonio!
25. 1st TV show you really liked: Batibot perhaps
26. 1st book you bought: a Nancy Drew
28. 1st sport you played: our Grade School football
29. 1st sleepover: during high school
30. 1st terrible fight: mmm, very young, with my sis
31. 1st prank: playing tricks on my sis
32. 1st inaanak: cindy's janryl
33. 1st debut party you attended: sino na ba?
34. 1st time you spent the night alone? my first night at the dorm, first year college
35. 1st bestfriend: some imaginary friend, Lala, from an imaginary place, L Land, haha!
36. 1st wedding you attended: i can't remember. Why do i go on with this, if i don't remember almost everything!
37. 1st person who greeted you on your last birthday: Di ko rin alam! Waah!
38. 1st friend in friendster? Roch ata
39. 1st time you got lost: i get lost all the time so beats me again
40. 1st cellphone: Motorola na parang plantsa
41. 1st cellphone ringtone: kring!
42. 1st collection: stationeries
43. 1st time you felt proud of yourself: when i won a singing contest at 6, haha! That i remember
44. 1st time you saw a ghost: 3rd year highschool
45. 1st rollercoaster ride: DreamWorld, Killer Loop
46. 1st school you attended: playschool
47. 1st friend you had when you entered: i don't remember a single classmate
48. 1st ambition: to be a lawyer

January 02, 2005

Happy New Year!

Everything is a blur. I've been going out and eating a lot for the past two weeks. I had lots and lots of fun. I've been very busy socializing. I got to see some friends and relatives i don't see quite often.

The highlights: Oasis Steak buffet night, Kahlua, Japanese food, Kuya's Bar, Baguio City!, Christmas with my family, Kahlua, brandy and wine with kins, driving around, visiting friends, FRIENDS marathon, VIDEOKE and Magic Sing!, news about friends, my concerts at the house, movie marathons, Porterhouse Steak, the Da Vinci Code (read it the whole morning of December 25th), visitors!, text messages, endless!, oh i forgot to mention the gifts.

Now, i need to cram all the school stuff that i've never touched during the period.

In my excitement, i almost have not taken any pictures.